it has been a long weekend, and a very wet one. tonight, i'm too tired to type very much, and the storms have been wreaking havoc on everything around here. but i did want to add something. sometimes, a song will just capture my mood, good or bad, and just totally enhance it. today, this has been the one that just grabbed me and wouldn't let go, so i'll let this be my entry for today.
"Into the Mystic" - Van Morrison
We were born before the wind
Also younger than the sun
Ere the bonnie boat was won as we sailed into the mystic
Hark, now hear the sailors cry
Smell the sea and feel the sky
Let your soul and spirit fly into the mystic
And when that fog horn blows I will be coming home
And when the fog horn blows I want to hear it
I don't have to fear it
And I want to rock your gypsy soul
Just like way back in the days of old
And magnificently we will flow into the mystic
When that fog horn blows you know I will be coming home
And when that fog horn whistle blows I got to hear it
I don't have to fear it
And I want to rock your gypsy soul
Just like way back in the days of old
And together we will flow into the mystic
Come on girl...
Too late to stop now...
Monday, May 31, 2004
Friday, May 28, 2004
Early entry today...
"i'm not addicted to blackjack, i'm addicted to sitting in a semi-circle." -Mitch Hedberg
doing my entry a little early today. i'm heading out of town this evening, and won't be back until tomorrow.
my friend chris is getting married next weekend, so this is "bachelor party 2: the police record". part 1 was the race at martinsville. only 5 of us tonight. it is actually a combo-party for chris and another friend, darren. he is getting married in about 3 weeks. i swear..by the end of this summer, i'm going to be the only single person in west liberty! definitely the summer of love, it seems.
yesterday was nice. even though i got almost NO work done, i got to spend some time with my friend eric. helped him out with his pc a little and stayed over for dinner. we sat out on the porch and had a few beers and some good food. ...and then the storms started rolling in. i have NEVER seen lightning like that. it was so incredible. it just kept tracing out these intricate patterns across the sky. the amazing thing is that the center of the storm was around mt. sterling at the time, but the lightning was reaching all the way over here. just incredible.
i came on home and shut down and unplugged everything. i was going to sit on the porch and watch it all roll in, but chris called and said his dad thought i should come over and wait it out in their basement with them. at first, i didn't want to, but he lured me with the promise of beer. and since i was out, i decided to take my storm watching elsewhere. =)
chris' dad is pretty freaked out about storms, though, so it made him nervous that we were outside watching the lightning, and he told us to come inside. it was funny...i felt like we were 10 years old. then there was no beer. bummer. we just sorta watched tv and listened to it blow over. it didn't really get that bad here. there was a tree down in the road when i came back home, but not much else.
so i missed a good opportunity to sit out on my porch and try my new pipe last night. i picked it up in lexington wednesday. it is kind of like the one Aragorn smoked in the LOTR movies. the guy at the tobacco place told me it was called a churchwarden. said they were getting popular again. i'm guessing because of the movies. so many geeks like myself out there...makes me happy! =)
the guy showed me this pipe and said, "that's a good one, if you are looking for a short smoke." ...i heard, "that is a good pipe, if you are wanting one for smoking weed." i'm fairly sure that is what he meant. he looked like he had smoked a few bowls in his day. i got some tobacco that smelled pretty good, and was supposed to be "not too mild, not too harsh". i tried a little of it yesterday, and it was pretty nice. now all i need is a sword, and a horse, and a...
yeah, that should pretty much ensure i never get a date EVER again...it would certainly thin out the prospective candidates. lol... if i just went ahead and started playing dungeons and dragons, i'd say that should narrow 'er on down even more. i don't think those people ever emerge in daylight though, so we'll probably never cross paths. =)
i'm sure that i will have much more to write in here tomorrow. hopefully someone will win a lot of money at the riverboat and decide to give me some, too! =) i really suck at gambling. i like to play blackjack, though. i usually only allow myself like 20 bucks for gambling, and i run through that pretty quick. then i just sit and drink the cheap drinks while i "people watch". there are definitely some people with some stories to be told inside those places.
i think that when people go to gamble on the riverboat, they should have to put on costumes from the 1800's. BUT...all of the men should have to dress up like mark twain. that would be really cool, just walking around a riverboat filled with mark twains.
well, i think it would be cool.
doing my entry a little early today. i'm heading out of town this evening, and won't be back until tomorrow.
my friend chris is getting married next weekend, so this is "bachelor party 2: the police record". part 1 was the race at martinsville. only 5 of us tonight. it is actually a combo-party for chris and another friend, darren. he is getting married in about 3 weeks. i swear..by the end of this summer, i'm going to be the only single person in west liberty! definitely the summer of love, it seems.
yesterday was nice. even though i got almost NO work done, i got to spend some time with my friend eric. helped him out with his pc a little and stayed over for dinner. we sat out on the porch and had a few beers and some good food. ...and then the storms started rolling in. i have NEVER seen lightning like that. it was so incredible. it just kept tracing out these intricate patterns across the sky. the amazing thing is that the center of the storm was around mt. sterling at the time, but the lightning was reaching all the way over here. just incredible.
i came on home and shut down and unplugged everything. i was going to sit on the porch and watch it all roll in, but chris called and said his dad thought i should come over and wait it out in their basement with them. at first, i didn't want to, but he lured me with the promise of beer. and since i was out, i decided to take my storm watching elsewhere. =)
chris' dad is pretty freaked out about storms, though, so it made him nervous that we were outside watching the lightning, and he told us to come inside. it was funny...i felt like we were 10 years old. then there was no beer. bummer. we just sorta watched tv and listened to it blow over. it didn't really get that bad here. there was a tree down in the road when i came back home, but not much else.
so i missed a good opportunity to sit out on my porch and try my new pipe last night. i picked it up in lexington wednesday. it is kind of like the one Aragorn smoked in the LOTR movies. the guy at the tobacco place told me it was called a churchwarden. said they were getting popular again. i'm guessing because of the movies. so many geeks like myself out there...makes me happy! =)
the guy showed me this pipe and said, "that's a good one, if you are looking for a short smoke." ...i heard, "that is a good pipe, if you are wanting one for smoking weed." i'm fairly sure that is what he meant. he looked like he had smoked a few bowls in his day. i got some tobacco that smelled pretty good, and was supposed to be "not too mild, not too harsh". i tried a little of it yesterday, and it was pretty nice. now all i need is a sword, and a horse, and a...
yeah, that should pretty much ensure i never get a date EVER again...it would certainly thin out the prospective candidates. lol... if i just went ahead and started playing dungeons and dragons, i'd say that should narrow 'er on down even more. i don't think those people ever emerge in daylight though, so we'll probably never cross paths. =)
i'm sure that i will have much more to write in here tomorrow. hopefully someone will win a lot of money at the riverboat and decide to give me some, too! =) i really suck at gambling. i like to play blackjack, though. i usually only allow myself like 20 bucks for gambling, and i run through that pretty quick. then i just sit and drink the cheap drinks while i "people watch". there are definitely some people with some stories to be told inside those places.
i think that when people go to gamble on the riverboat, they should have to put on costumes from the 1800's. BUT...all of the men should have to dress up like mark twain. that would be really cool, just walking around a riverboat filled with mark twains.
well, i think it would be cool.
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
shit about me...
05.26.2004 | 12:56am
sometimes, if i'm in my car and something strange happens, i'll turn my head slightly to the side, with a confused look on my face, as if i'm staring into the invisible camera that is filming my life.
i'm a geologist, but i know very little about gemstones...and that doesn't bother me.
i like tie-dye shit, but i don't own any. i had one really cool shirt once...from a diner in kill devil hills, north carolina. it said "eat and get the hell out!". i liked that shirt. i think my ex-girlfriend took it.
sometimes, i'll be having a dream, and it is way cooler than my actual life...and then i wake up...look around the room...and i'm like, "shit!".
in the evening, i leave my porch light on for a while. it draws little millers and moths up to the porch, and they seem to be everywhere. in the morning, they are all gone. where the hell do moths spend their afternoons? (ok..that isn't really about ME...but it is something that i think about)
i really miss kissing. that is one of my favorite things in this world.
i hate spiders. last night, a huge spider crawled up beside me on the floor. i was barefoot, so i threw a little board down on top of it and stomped on it. what i didn't know was that the board had a nail sticking out of it. it was the head of the nail, but it really hurt anyway. i think that was an example of kharma equalling itself out on the spot.
i'm really sleepy. i'm going to bed.
sometimes, if i'm in my car and something strange happens, i'll turn my head slightly to the side, with a confused look on my face, as if i'm staring into the invisible camera that is filming my life.
i'm a geologist, but i know very little about gemstones...and that doesn't bother me.
i like tie-dye shit, but i don't own any. i had one really cool shirt once...from a diner in kill devil hills, north carolina. it said "eat and get the hell out!". i liked that shirt. i think my ex-girlfriend took it.
sometimes, i'll be having a dream, and it is way cooler than my actual life...and then i wake up...look around the room...and i'm like, "shit!".
in the evening, i leave my porch light on for a while. it draws little millers and moths up to the porch, and they seem to be everywhere. in the morning, they are all gone. where the hell do moths spend their afternoons? (ok..that isn't really about ME...but it is something that i think about)
i really miss kissing. that is one of my favorite things in this world.
i hate spiders. last night, a huge spider crawled up beside me on the floor. i was barefoot, so i threw a little board down on top of it and stomped on it. what i didn't know was that the board had a nail sticking out of it. it was the head of the nail, but it really hurt anyway. i think that was an example of kharma equalling itself out on the spot.
i'm really sleepy. i'm going to bed.
so tired....
ok, this is my entry for the 26th, although it is now the 27th...but it is still the 26th SOMEWHERE, right? RIGHT?!?
it is almost 2am. i just got back from lexington. paul and i did our last web design course tonight at the small business development center. if my friend jason was here, he would ask me, "is the CENTER small, or are the BUSINESSES small?". good ol' jason.
can't believe he is getting married this summer. can't believe the damn wedding is like 17 hours away from here! no damn way i'm driving 17 hours to see a damn wedding (have i said DAMN enough?). but i can't decide which is worse...driving that far or paying almost $300 for a plane ticket to watch a WEDDING!
i'm not anti-wedding or marriage. but i just have such a different idea of how this will go down with me, if it ever DOES go with me. we'll be lying in the bed, talking about weddings and marriage and how we've both always just pictured that we'd run off to vegas. we'd both get really quiet for a second, look at each other, and just jump out of the bed and go! maybe we'd have a "family" version later on, so that we'll still get invited to family reunions...hell, if one of us can cook good chicken 'n dumplings, we won't even have to go to THOSE!
did i just base family independence on chicken and dumplings?
i don't think i'll ever type the word "dumplings" again. i already hate saying it. it is one of those strange words that if you say it over and over, it starts to sound like it isn't even a real word. kind of like "slacks", or "frothy".
when i get up in the morning, i fully expect to look out across the bottom in front of my house and see a newly formed lake. it has come down like pouring piss out of a boot today. actually, i've never poured piss out of a boot, so i'm not sure if that is an appropriate description or not.
but, if i notice pairs of animals hanging out together over the next few days, i'm heading for higher ground. wonder if you can pick up an ark at wal mart?
i found a great site today. i was looking for a t-shirt that says "i'm what willis was talkin' about", and found it on www.tshirthell.com they had some really funny shirts, but i'm not sure where you'd wear most of them. i can't really see myself rolling up to the freezer fresh with a "WWJD for a klondike bar" shirt on.
i got some email from 1969 tonight. apparently, monserrate wilkins was selling viagra way back then, but his emails are just now making it out. i bet he is PISSED!
also had an email from becky when i got back, and it just made my night. she is my muse for actually getting back into working on this site. if you are reading this, i just want to say, "thank you"....and i'm getting ready to respond to your email. =)
well, i think that about does it for tonight. oh...nope.. one more thing.
about a month ago, i had convinced myself that i had attention defecit disorder. pretty much since i was a sophomore in high school, i haven't been able to focus. when i read a book, a lot of times i'll get to the bottom of the page, and i'm like, "what the hell did i just read?", because 2,347 thoughts were bouncing around inside my head while i was reading. it was the same all through college.
it just got to the point recently that i decided it was time to take action about it. my mom was convinced it was ADD. i took the little online test, and it pretty much said, "yeah...you gots it!". so, i got some samples of strattera to try.
i'm pretty anti-medicine. i haven't always been that way, but over the past 10 years or so, i've just lost faith in it. i can't believe i'm going to type this, but that is what this blog shit is for, right?
when i feel sick...maybe a headache, or i feel sick to my stomach...i will put my hand on the spot where it feels bad, and focus on trying to make it not feel bad anymore....ok...now that i've typed that, i am really wanting to go back and delete it! but i won't.
anyways, sometimes it seems to actually help! my dad was a healer, at least when he was younger. i never got to talk to him about how he did it. i never talked to him about a lot of things i wish i had. but this ADD, or whatever...i just couldn't shake it. i couldn't focus on work. i'd sit down to start something, and 20 minutes later i'd be off doing something else. i told paul, i'm REALLY good at getting something rolling...it is the FINISHING that i have trouble with. i think i just need to be an idea guy somewhere. =)
so i started taking this medicine. and for the first day or so, it seemed like maybe it was working. when i'd start something, i would really stay on task. the funny thing is that the medicine really has no way to control WHAT you focus on. so if i started just randomly surfing the internet, i might get caught up in that for HOURS!
as the month has passed, the effectiveness of it seems to have started to fade. also, i started to forget to take it regularly (maybe that had something to do with the drop off in performance!). anyway, a few days ago i completely forgot to take it. so i've decided that i'm going to stop taking it completely. looking back on when i started it, i think i was just particularly stressed out. the moving, business, and all that "real life" crap that i hate.
but that is part of life. the stress. the anxiety. the good AND the bad. besides...i don't think i have ADD...i'm just a dangerous mixture of procrastinator and slacker. =)
well...i'm not going to put off going to bed. i'm zapped. good night! i'll leave you with this, from mitch hedberg. i think i'll try to incorporate a little piece of his humor every time i write one of these.
"i had a job interview at an insurance company once, and the lady said, "where do you see yourself in five years?", and i said, "celebrating the fifth year anniversary of you asking me this question!""
it is almost 2am. i just got back from lexington. paul and i did our last web design course tonight at the small business development center. if my friend jason was here, he would ask me, "is the CENTER small, or are the BUSINESSES small?". good ol' jason.
can't believe he is getting married this summer. can't believe the damn wedding is like 17 hours away from here! no damn way i'm driving 17 hours to see a damn wedding (have i said DAMN enough?). but i can't decide which is worse...driving that far or paying almost $300 for a plane ticket to watch a WEDDING!
i'm not anti-wedding or marriage. but i just have such a different idea of how this will go down with me, if it ever DOES go with me. we'll be lying in the bed, talking about weddings and marriage and how we've both always just pictured that we'd run off to vegas. we'd both get really quiet for a second, look at each other, and just jump out of the bed and go! maybe we'd have a "family" version later on, so that we'll still get invited to family reunions...hell, if one of us can cook good chicken 'n dumplings, we won't even have to go to THOSE!
did i just base family independence on chicken and dumplings?
i don't think i'll ever type the word "dumplings" again. i already hate saying it. it is one of those strange words that if you say it over and over, it starts to sound like it isn't even a real word. kind of like "slacks", or "frothy".
when i get up in the morning, i fully expect to look out across the bottom in front of my house and see a newly formed lake. it has come down like pouring piss out of a boot today. actually, i've never poured piss out of a boot, so i'm not sure if that is an appropriate description or not.
but, if i notice pairs of animals hanging out together over the next few days, i'm heading for higher ground. wonder if you can pick up an ark at wal mart?
i found a great site today. i was looking for a t-shirt that says "i'm what willis was talkin' about", and found it on www.tshirthell.com they had some really funny shirts, but i'm not sure where you'd wear most of them. i can't really see myself rolling up to the freezer fresh with a "WWJD for a klondike bar" shirt on.
i got some email from 1969 tonight. apparently, monserrate wilkins was selling viagra way back then, but his emails are just now making it out. i bet he is PISSED!
also had an email from becky when i got back, and it just made my night. she is my muse for actually getting back into working on this site. if you are reading this, i just want to say, "thank you"....and i'm getting ready to respond to your email. =)
well, i think that about does it for tonight. oh...nope.. one more thing.
about a month ago, i had convinced myself that i had attention defecit disorder. pretty much since i was a sophomore in high school, i haven't been able to focus. when i read a book, a lot of times i'll get to the bottom of the page, and i'm like, "what the hell did i just read?", because 2,347 thoughts were bouncing around inside my head while i was reading. it was the same all through college.
it just got to the point recently that i decided it was time to take action about it. my mom was convinced it was ADD. i took the little online test, and it pretty much said, "yeah...you gots it!". so, i got some samples of strattera to try.
i'm pretty anti-medicine. i haven't always been that way, but over the past 10 years or so, i've just lost faith in it. i can't believe i'm going to type this, but that is what this blog shit is for, right?
when i feel sick...maybe a headache, or i feel sick to my stomach...i will put my hand on the spot where it feels bad, and focus on trying to make it not feel bad anymore....ok...now that i've typed that, i am really wanting to go back and delete it! but i won't.
anyways, sometimes it seems to actually help! my dad was a healer, at least when he was younger. i never got to talk to him about how he did it. i never talked to him about a lot of things i wish i had. but this ADD, or whatever...i just couldn't shake it. i couldn't focus on work. i'd sit down to start something, and 20 minutes later i'd be off doing something else. i told paul, i'm REALLY good at getting something rolling...it is the FINISHING that i have trouble with. i think i just need to be an idea guy somewhere. =)
so i started taking this medicine. and for the first day or so, it seemed like maybe it was working. when i'd start something, i would really stay on task. the funny thing is that the medicine really has no way to control WHAT you focus on. so if i started just randomly surfing the internet, i might get caught up in that for HOURS!
as the month has passed, the effectiveness of it seems to have started to fade. also, i started to forget to take it regularly (maybe that had something to do with the drop off in performance!). anyway, a few days ago i completely forgot to take it. so i've decided that i'm going to stop taking it completely. looking back on when i started it, i think i was just particularly stressed out. the moving, business, and all that "real life" crap that i hate.
but that is part of life. the stress. the anxiety. the good AND the bad. besides...i don't think i have ADD...i'm just a dangerous mixture of procrastinator and slacker. =)
well...i'm not going to put off going to bed. i'm zapped. good night! i'll leave you with this, from mitch hedberg. i think i'll try to incorporate a little piece of his humor every time i write one of these.
"i had a job interview at an insurance company once, and the lady said, "where do you see yourself in five years?", and i said, "celebrating the fifth year anniversary of you asking me this question!""
hey...2 days in a row!
today was a pretty good one. still didn't get very much accomplished. too tired from sitting in the barn last night with my sister waiting on a baby horse that never came. i think she just ate too much.
the horse.
not my sister.
i managed to plant about half the vegetables that have been on my porch for a week. i'll try to get the other half thursday.
i'm in a counting crows/wallflowers mood tonight. not sure why. i had a really good day. found out that i'll probably be moving the office out of the house and into the UK Regional Technology Center in town, and doing their site for them. Sometimes I do this...
i met (well, an online meeting) a great soul last night. i mentioned her site yesterday. i'd like to put a link to it in here, but i want to see if that is ok with her, first. it did my heart good to find out that there are people like her out there. sometimes, it seems like i'm surrounded by robots. i mean, my friends aren't robots. they are great. but, in the search for that "someone", it can get pretty frustrating feeling like there is no one out there that thinks about shit the way i do.
i have no idea how things will go, or if we'll ever even chat again. i really hope so. she was completely cool. but it does give me hope...and scares me at the same time. i mean, i don't think that girls like her come along every day. i've met ONE other girl this cool before...and she is marrying one of my best friends in a few weeks.
not every girl likes to play in mud, dance in the rain, go fishing, drink beers...not every girl understands what it is like to sometimes just need to be sad for a while, or what it is like to sometimes feel like your life is a movie. i wonder how many ARE out there?!?
tonight was very stormy for a while. after planting my weak-ass little plants and taking a shower, i made some dinner. grilled some corn...first time i've tried that. very good. after dinner, i sat on the porch in my rocking chair, drank a beer, smoked a camel, and watched the storm roll over the hill towards my house.
i wished i had a camera that i could have just pointed in that direction and then opened the shutter for like 10 minutes. the sky was amazing, and the lightning bugs were going crazy. i could kind of see the picture in my head. it was cool. =)
i really want a camera, but i'm so afraid that my foray into photography will end like most of my ideas...collecting dust on the shelf. but i think this would be different. i've always loved taking pictures, but i've never had the right equipment. i think it would inspire me.
i really like the comedian mitch hedberg...SOOOO funny. in one of his routines, he talks about doing standup. how you have to start off strong, and end strong...those are the 2 key elements. he said, "you can't be like pancakes...all exciting at first, but by the end, you're fucking sick of 'em!"
everything i do is like eating pancakes. what a way to live.
well, it is 12:40. i am so tired. long day tomorrow. bed soon. really.
the horse.
not my sister.
i managed to plant about half the vegetables that have been on my porch for a week. i'll try to get the other half thursday.
i'm in a counting crows/wallflowers mood tonight. not sure why. i had a really good day. found out that i'll probably be moving the office out of the house and into the UK Regional Technology Center in town, and doing their site for them. Sometimes I do this...
i met (well, an online meeting) a great soul last night. i mentioned her site yesterday. i'd like to put a link to it in here, but i want to see if that is ok with her, first. it did my heart good to find out that there are people like her out there. sometimes, it seems like i'm surrounded by robots. i mean, my friends aren't robots. they are great. but, in the search for that "someone", it can get pretty frustrating feeling like there is no one out there that thinks about shit the way i do.
i have no idea how things will go, or if we'll ever even chat again. i really hope so. she was completely cool. but it does give me hope...and scares me at the same time. i mean, i don't think that girls like her come along every day. i've met ONE other girl this cool before...and she is marrying one of my best friends in a few weeks.
not every girl likes to play in mud, dance in the rain, go fishing, drink beers...not every girl understands what it is like to sometimes just need to be sad for a while, or what it is like to sometimes feel like your life is a movie. i wonder how many ARE out there?!?
tonight was very stormy for a while. after planting my weak-ass little plants and taking a shower, i made some dinner. grilled some corn...first time i've tried that. very good. after dinner, i sat on the porch in my rocking chair, drank a beer, smoked a camel, and watched the storm roll over the hill towards my house.
i wished i had a camera that i could have just pointed in that direction and then opened the shutter for like 10 minutes. the sky was amazing, and the lightning bugs were going crazy. i could kind of see the picture in my head. it was cool. =)
i really want a camera, but i'm so afraid that my foray into photography will end like most of my ideas...collecting dust on the shelf. but i think this would be different. i've always loved taking pictures, but i've never had the right equipment. i think it would inspire me.
i really like the comedian mitch hedberg...SOOOO funny. in one of his routines, he talks about doing standup. how you have to start off strong, and end strong...those are the 2 key elements. he said, "you can't be like pancakes...all exciting at first, but by the end, you're fucking sick of 'em!"
everything i do is like eating pancakes. what a way to live.
well, it is 12:40. i am so tired. long day tomorrow. bed soon. really.
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
my first chip related incident...
recently, i ordered some plants from the internet (no...not THAT kind of plant!!).
anyway, i hadn't heard anything back about my order, and i sat down this morning to write an email to them. i just wanted to make sure they got it.
i had typed about 2 lines, and i heard a horn honking outside. it was the postman. he had a package that was too big for the box.
i'll give you 3 guesses what it was. =)
my plants!
the funny thing is, it says in big letters on top of the box, "Krackin Premium Plants", and then i came outside to get it from the mailman wearing a Black Crowes t-shirt with 2 crows on the front smoking joints.
wonder if he had any thoughts about what might be inside that box? =)
anyway, i hadn't heard anything back about my order, and i sat down this morning to write an email to them. i just wanted to make sure they got it.
i had typed about 2 lines, and i heard a horn honking outside. it was the postman. he had a package that was too big for the box.
i'll give you 3 guesses what it was. =)
my plants!
the funny thing is, it says in big letters on top of the box, "Krackin Premium Plants", and then i came outside to get it from the mailman wearing a Black Crowes t-shirt with 2 crows on the front smoking joints.
wonder if he had any thoughts about what might be inside that box? =)
Monday, May 24, 2004
ok...i really suck at this
well, apparently that last attempt at keeping up with this thing that i made 3 weeks ago didn't quite take. i think about stuff i'd like to write everyday, but i never actually sit down and do it. story of my life, up 'till now.
i have gotten better about some things, but i'm still a work in progress on many others...and i probably always will be. the one thing i'm most proud of is that i've actually been getting outside and doing work around the house lately. living in lexington, i didn't really ever have to do that. i was definitely becoming the overweight, ghost-white, computer geek stereotype. but being back here has inspired me to do more...to live more. i'm happy about that.
so what is my inspiration for writing here today? well, i got an email this morning from someone i met online. she included a link to her site, and i was totally fascinated. (if you're reading this, becky, your site is great). she has a wonderful way of expressing herself, both in her writing and her artwork. i lingered on the site far longer than i should have (i have so much work i'm behind on). anyways, she really inspired me to get back in here and write.
i love to write, but i don't take the time to do it as often as i should. i've been getting good feedback from family and friends, though, about my writing at morganminute.com, and that makes me feel great.
i've also added a "chip related incident" today. i guess i should explain the "chip theory"...but i won't....just yet. soon. =)
ok...time for lunch, writing back to becky, and then working....and probably about 17 other unscheduled things in between all of those.
i have gotten better about some things, but i'm still a work in progress on many others...and i probably always will be. the one thing i'm most proud of is that i've actually been getting outside and doing work around the house lately. living in lexington, i didn't really ever have to do that. i was definitely becoming the overweight, ghost-white, computer geek stereotype. but being back here has inspired me to do more...to live more. i'm happy about that.
so what is my inspiration for writing here today? well, i got an email this morning from someone i met online. she included a link to her site, and i was totally fascinated. (if you're reading this, becky, your site is great). she has a wonderful way of expressing herself, both in her writing and her artwork. i lingered on the site far longer than i should have (i have so much work i'm behind on). anyways, she really inspired me to get back in here and write.
i love to write, but i don't take the time to do it as often as i should. i've been getting good feedback from family and friends, though, about my writing at morganminute.com, and that makes me feel great.
i've also added a "chip related incident" today. i guess i should explain the "chip theory"...but i won't....just yet. soon. =)
ok...time for lunch, writing back to becky, and then working....and probably about 17 other unscheduled things in between all of those.
Monday, May 03, 2004
Ok...let's try this again...
it is now 5:09 pm, monday may 3rd, 2004
well, i know that said it when i started this damn thing, but this time i'm really gonna make an effort to keep this thing going. unfortunately, right after i got this thing set up back in january, i had to start getting ready for my move out of lexington and to west liberty.
well, i'm all settled in now (even though i've still got shit in boxes everywhere!) so here we go!
today is my mom's birthday. she still isn't feeling too good. my sister took her to visit with my aunt for the day, so that is nice. hope they have fun.
i had to go to mom's to sit and wait on a package from Fedex that was arriving today. when the package showed up, it was this sexy driver that delivered a package to me last week at MY home.
when i came outside, she recognized me and said, "so are you here AND out on 705?" i told her it was my mom's birthday and she wanted a day on the town, so i came over to wait on the package. she is definitely cute. she is probably a little older than i am...but sexy. very cool that she remembered me. she may have even given me a little smile...not sure about that part, though. =) "Dear Penthouse..."
had a hard time sleeping last night. i'm still sore from a day of drinking and volleyball playing on Derby Day. in addition, i watched the Sopranos right before bed, and i was in a semi-conscious dream state all night long, and most of it involved me being in a mafia family. it was very disturbing at times! the worst part was that it wore me out...i tossed and turned until almost 6 this morning before finally falling asleep. when the alarm went off at 8, i could barely move! crazy fucking night!
in addition, i had a dream about my life last night. the damnable misery of it was that my dream life was better than my REAL life! it was one of those dreams where you wake up and it takes a second or 2 to sink in that you've just been dreaming...then you're like, "shit!! no!". i met like the perfect girl, we were in love, and even in the dream, it felt like nothing i've ever experienced in a relationship. i was like, "ah! this is what true love feels like! i've finally found it!" then POOF! you are awake. fuck that!
i still sometimes dream about "thegirl" from time to time. she seems to somehow always slip into my mind and my dreams. i'm not sure that it was her in my dream last night, but i think it was maybe the IDEA of her. i really don't know. damn it all to hell!
oh well...
well, i know that said it when i started this damn thing, but this time i'm really gonna make an effort to keep this thing going. unfortunately, right after i got this thing set up back in january, i had to start getting ready for my move out of lexington and to west liberty.
well, i'm all settled in now (even though i've still got shit in boxes everywhere!) so here we go!
today is my mom's birthday. she still isn't feeling too good. my sister took her to visit with my aunt for the day, so that is nice. hope they have fun.
i had to go to mom's to sit and wait on a package from Fedex that was arriving today. when the package showed up, it was this sexy driver that delivered a package to me last week at MY home.
when i came outside, she recognized me and said, "so are you here AND out on 705?" i told her it was my mom's birthday and she wanted a day on the town, so i came over to wait on the package. she is definitely cute. she is probably a little older than i am...but sexy. very cool that she remembered me. she may have even given me a little smile...not sure about that part, though. =) "Dear Penthouse..."
had a hard time sleeping last night. i'm still sore from a day of drinking and volleyball playing on Derby Day. in addition, i watched the Sopranos right before bed, and i was in a semi-conscious dream state all night long, and most of it involved me being in a mafia family. it was very disturbing at times! the worst part was that it wore me out...i tossed and turned until almost 6 this morning before finally falling asleep. when the alarm went off at 8, i could barely move! crazy fucking night!
in addition, i had a dream about my life last night. the damnable misery of it was that my dream life was better than my REAL life! it was one of those dreams where you wake up and it takes a second or 2 to sink in that you've just been dreaming...then you're like, "shit!! no!". i met like the perfect girl, we were in love, and even in the dream, it felt like nothing i've ever experienced in a relationship. i was like, "ah! this is what true love feels like! i've finally found it!" then POOF! you are awake. fuck that!
i still sometimes dream about "thegirl" from time to time. she seems to somehow always slip into my mind and my dreams. i'm not sure that it was her in my dream last night, but i think it was maybe the IDEA of her. i really don't know. damn it all to hell!
oh well...
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