Ok...let's try this again...

it is now 5:09 pm, monday may 3rd, 2004

well, i know that said it when i started this damn thing, but this time i'm really gonna make an effort to keep this thing going. unfortunately, right after i got this thing set up back in january, i had to start getting ready for my move out of lexington and to west liberty.

well, i'm all settled in now (even though i've still got shit in boxes everywhere!) so here we go!

today is my mom's birthday. she still isn't feeling too good. my sister took her to visit with my aunt for the day, so that is nice. hope they have fun.

i had to go to mom's to sit and wait on a package from Fedex that was arriving today. when the package showed up, it was this sexy driver that delivered a package to me last week at MY home.

when i came outside, she recognized me and said, "so are you here AND out on 705?" i told her it was my mom's birthday and she wanted a day on the town, so i came over to wait on the package. she is definitely cute. she is probably a little older than i am...but sexy. very cool that she remembered me. she may have even given me a little smile...not sure about that part, though. =) "Dear Penthouse..."

had a hard time sleeping last night. i'm still sore from a day of drinking and volleyball playing on Derby Day. in addition, i watched the Sopranos right before bed, and i was in a semi-conscious dream state all night long, and most of it involved me being in a mafia family. it was very disturbing at times! the worst part was that it wore me out...i tossed and turned until almost 6 this morning before finally falling asleep. when the alarm went off at 8, i could barely move! crazy fucking night!

in addition, i had a dream about my life last night. the damnable misery of it was that my dream life was better than my REAL life! it was one of those dreams where you wake up and it takes a second or 2 to sink in that you've just been dreaming...then you're like, "shit!! no!". i met like the perfect girl, we were in love, and even in the dream, it felt like nothing i've ever experienced in a relationship. i was like, "ah! this is what true love feels like! i've finally found it!" then POOF! you are awake. fuck that!

i still sometimes dream about "thegirl" from time to time. she seems to somehow always slip into my mind and my dreams. i'm not sure that it was her in my dream last night, but i think it was maybe the IDEA of her. i really don't know. damn it all to hell!

oh well...